I started an old blog entry with the same lines before, it's taken from a song I used to like... now I'm back feeling the same way.
There's just too much going on. A lot of things going wrong. Petty as they may seem to some but big enough for me to lose sleep over it. Not that I would miss sleeping, as I always say about a lot of things.. If I don't need to, I'm not doing it. I just feel that sleep takes so much time that could have been spent doing other things. But now, I'm starting to feel differently about it. Sleeping means I don't have to deal with anything and anyone. I don't think I belong here anymore. The world in my dreams seem to be more welcoming, more understanding. I can be anyone I want to be in my dreams. I can go anywhere I want. I can do everything that I want.
Here, I am just a phrase uttered into the wind with a message altered beyond recognition that people try to write me in their own words without really understanding what I really ought to say. I have a lot of people around me but I am as lonely as I can be. And a bit sad, for how drastic the tables have turned. Now I have too much time on my hands when all I want to do is sleep.
